Tuesday, August 31, 2010


Meet my beautiful little girl, baby K. I am beyond words with the emotions that I am feeling right now. All I know is I am totally in love with her. She is currently being taken care of at a foster home in Makati thru the CRIBS Foundation. She is 17 1/2 months old, happy, healthy, and just adorable. The moment I saw her, she had my heart. I've always wondered how this moment would be, when I see my daughter for the first time. I am amazed at how much I loved her the moment that I saw her. Never did I imagine how powerful a mother's love truly is until now. There isn't a moment now that I don't think of her. I think about holding her in my arms, rocking her to sleep, and just kiss those scrumptious cheeks! In essence, I just really want to be her mommy. I am so blessed that God has given me the chance to mother this sweet little girl. Ironically, I began this blog as a way to vent when I was frustrated with "the wait" for a match. It is a true blessing that today, I'm writing that I know why that wait was necessary. God was preparing her birth family's heart to make a difficult decision to let her go and He was also preparing our hearts to accept such a wonderful treasure. So, those of you who are still waiting for a match, on the hot trail of paper chasing, waiting to be invited to travel, or waiting to return home with you precious little treasures: I am praying for all of us to remember that God's timing is perfect. Despite the frustrations, set-backs, and disappointments along the way, know that God's hand is upon all of us. He has a perfect plan, so don't lose hope...He has amazing wonderful promises for all of those who remain faithful in Him. Goodnight blogging moms...and blessings to you little one.

Sunday, August 22, 2010


We witness a miracle every time a child enters into life.
But those who make their journey home across time & miles,
growing within the hearts of those who wait to love them,
are carried on the wings of destiny and placed among us
by God's very own hands.
--- Kristi Larson

I ran into this quote today. It's surreal to realize that God has been orchestrating and planning all of the details to bring my little one home, from the beginning of time. I can't wait to meet you sweet one, you who was created specifically for me to mother and love...

To my waiting little one,
I know you're on this earth now...I pray that you are loved, safe, and content. It is my hope that you are cared for by those who God has entrusted you to, before coming home to us. May the Lord make His face shine upon you and give you peace. May these things sustain you until we meet...


Kisses in the Wind to my little one...

KISSES IN THE WIND (The Waiting Child's Lullabye)

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.

--- © Pamela Durkota, written for Josh